I recently wrote a blog about us not all being in the same boat when it comes to COVID-19 and how that compares to women postpartum, which may be why some go through postpartum mood disorders and some do not. I wrote about being one of the lucky ones. Well, maybe I cursed myself because right after that I found out my work would not be reopening. I still consider myself one of the lucky ones. I am still babysitting for essential employees, they have a pool, my husband is still working and I am about to republish my book and am blogging. Once my babysitting job ends, I have many other options to consider. I still do not know of anyone close to me dying or even getting really sick. I am still walking the dogs and am now even able to get their nails trimmed and my hair cut again, and I can get massages again!
I had to miss watching my niece graduating from my old high school in person because only 4 could attend, but I got to watch it on TV and part of me even thought can we keep doing it this way forever, as I watched comfortably from my bed in my pajamas. I also recently wrote some blogs about my career not going as expected so of course that continues to be the case. I have no idea what I am gonna do next. Of course I am hoping my book and blogs take off and/or my husband gets promoted in the near future, but if not, I must decide if I want to find another preschool teacher job, maybe even stay a Nanny, maybe even for one of my former students, go back to the corporate world maybe even in HR or payroll again, or do something completely different. It is exciting and scary all at the same time. Since I have OCD and Anxiety of course it is scary, but over the years it has kind of become so normal I have had to learn to manage through it.
Most people do not stay at jobs for long anymore. I often wish I had lived when people kept the same job forever and companies took care of you even through retirement. It is so hard to change jobs, even when it is for a better one. It is hard to start over learning everything again, it is hard to make new friends again and it is hard to leave your old ones, it is hard to hope you get a good boss and management and a company that really cares about you. The place that is closing is a church daycare. Many are hurt by their decision to close. Some say they are a business that needs to make money, but there is also frustration because they are a church, not a business and they don’t pay taxes for that reason. Yet when it comes down to it, they layoff people if they do not make enough money. Not only are they not required to pay unemployment, they are not allowed to in the state I live in. If it were not for the exceptions passed by Congress due to COVID-19, no one would even qualify.
Although the reason for not reopening seems to be that the unpredictability of when and how to reopen and new stringent requirements(which are already pretty stringent), the daycare had a waiting list of 100 people and was one of the best around, but despite that it often seemed to be hinted that a yearly consignment sale helped to pay our salaries, and we were strongly encouraged to volunteer to work at it for free, so I guess the money parents paid each month was not enough? The church did pay workers more than most of them around here, in addition to a huge childcare discount, which was amazing, and they are still paying us for another month even after we just found out we are closing. The parents of most of the kids were amazing and often gave the teachers gifts and you always felt appreciated by most of them and most of the church staff. The people who made this decision were not people I knew well or worked closely with. My bosses and coworkers were all amazing and I will miss them and my work babies so very much.
Those of us who all loved this job, are left with so many questions. Even working for a church, I found my HR background have me questioning the morality and legality of many of their practices. I felt there was no fighting it though because if someone did, they probably would have just closed like they are now. I personally did not need benefits and paid time off. I currently have them through my husband, but many did need them but could not get them. Many struggled to even pay for lunch each day and I personally helped as many as I could. One thing I have really been shocked about over my career, is how little most people at the top care about employees or really even customers for that matter. It always seems to come down to money, even in a church where I thought my job was mainly a ministry to win young people to the church and to give people in the community a job and to give parents in the community great childcare. I just hope after how many have lost their jobs and many even their insurance permanently or temporarily during this pandemic, that some things will change in our country.
Bio: Amanda Dodson Gremillion published her first book in 2012. She began revising it in 2019 and republished it as Just Buy Her A Dress and She’ll Be Fine. The story chronicles her experience with severe postpartum OCD, anxiety and depression. Amanda is a graduate of Auburn University, and now lives in Calera, Alabama, with her husband, Jay, their daughter, Aubrie, and their two dogs, Honey Girl and Cooper. She hopes to write more books in the future. Follow Amanda’s journey on Facebook, or twitter at https://twitter.com/AmandaGremilli2 and order her book here. Also, follow her on the Mighty here Amanda Dodson Gremillion | The Mighty Contributor