Below are 32 symptoms of postpartum depression.  Some of these symptoms also apply to other postpartum mood disorders. I originally thought I had 30 of the 32, but actually had all 32, because even though I did not self-harm, I had suicidal thoughts, and even though I don’t remember being scared to leave the house, I remember being anxious to leave the house or do anything really:

Angry Outbursts

Anxiety/Worry/Panic

Appetite changes

Attachment or connection to my baby missing

Concentration/lack of focus/forgetful

Loss of confidence/unsure of myself

Crying/sad/depressed/teary

Feeling like a failure/inadequate parent

Guilt and shame

Hopelessness/things will never improve/despair/loss of

power/helpless

Indecisive/changing my mind/confused

Irritability/Agitation/Cranky

Isolation/loneliness

Lack of joy

Loss of control/out of control

Loss of motivation and energy/enthusiasm

Negative/irrational thoughts

Not caring/numbness

Obsessive behaviours/manic about cleaning

Overwhelmed

Resentful of spouse

Scared to leave the house

Self-loathing/hating self/critical of self

Self-harm

Suicidal thoughts or attempts

Lowered self-esteem

Sleeping problems/insomnia

Stressed/unable to relax

Tired/exhausted/fatigue

Unable to cope/complete tasks

Unable to socialise/withdrawn from family and friends

Want to run away/don’t want to be a parent

Bio: Amanda Dodson Gremillion published her first book in 2012. She began revising it in 2019 and republished it as Just Buy Her A Dress and She’ll Be Fine. The story chronicles her experience with severe postpartum OCD, anxiety and depression. Amanda is a graduate of Auburn University, and now lives in Calera, Alabama, with her husband, Jay, their daughter, Aubrie, and their two dogs, Honey Girl and Cooper. She hopes to write more books in the future. Follow Amanda’s journey on Facebook,  or twitter at https://twitter.com/AmandaGremilli2 and order her book here.  Also, follow her on the Mighty here Amanda Dodson Gremillion | The Mighty Contributor or listen to her podcast here Just Buy Her A Dress and She’ll Be Fine • A podcast on Anchor . You can also find her on Instagram here Amanda Dodson Gremillion (@justbuyheradress) • Instagram photos and videos.